There's a song in English that says ... time to say goodbye ... Today ended a season of Desperate Housewives, which is by far my favorite among all ... a point in the episode is time to say goodbye, not a goodbye, goodbye is a full, final, painful, is a never look back, you go ahead without ... it ...
And yes, I think in my case it's time, I can not continue like this, you can not really try to move without saying goodbye ... hurts, it hurts a lot, but it's better, I realized that it is impossible talk, see, think it, without something stir inside me and make me love her. Today
perhaps most needed is to travel those miles in the opposite direction, because I am convinced that their happiness is miles from me, and that taking that step that you dared not do the easy things and I will simplify some of way too.
It hurt to think about it because maybe harbored a slight hope, that she one day realized that I needed and come to me, but why cheat?, She will not return, perhaps because it never was and was only a mirage ... not cross the threshold to tell me he loves me and can not be without me, because as said there, perhaps never had, never had, you might only have been the fantasy of the dream that longed for a better future, one on his side.
Today is another and so must remain in my memory to make it less difficult to forget ... may never forget it, just stop feeling it today because I hurt others, distant, impossible, as perhaps it ever was.
will be another, permanently, maybe that was always and I clutched at straws, thinking that our lives were bound together, united and not paying attention to the signs I thought that happiness was more when I was at my side, and yes I was very happy but today ... today no longer know what to think, just wanted to stop feeling, and I can not, I can if I'm around, because just imagine beating me hard and I do not know if this love will become extinct someday, maybe the absence help the distance can bring oblivion ...
inevitably sad, what is suffering is optional and no longer want to suffer because I have not, perhaps never had, is that I'll never ...
bye, the word is so strong, but it is not until then, means an ever forget, and contains a promise not to look back, it hurts because I never loved you well and may never do it again.
But I can not anymore, and I need to cut it for me ... perhaps because of it.
Goodbye love, goodbye ...
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